Trust, Patience and Not My Timing

So God likes to teach us things...sometimes we learn the first time around, sometimes it takes getting beat over the head with it to get it through our thick skulls. Unfortunately, I am usually in the latter group. (The majority of my early to mid twenties are proof of that.)

One of the lessons I have had to learn and am still working on learning is timing. Specifically, God's timing. 

I heard a DJ on K-Love say something that has brought this lesson back to the front of my mind. He made a comment about how things are never "in the nick of time" or "last minute" but that it is in God's time...and God's timing is always perfect. 

Hmmm...it was one of those moments where I knew that God was giving me a message. He was reminding me that his time is perfect even when I don't like it. 

You see...from my most recent post, you all know that Michael and I both owned our own homes prior to knowing each other and decided to live in Michael's home, remodel my house and sell it. As everyone knows, the housing market is not a seller's market. 

We tried selling it on our own and showed it to many people who loved it only to find out that they couldn't get financing. So we made the decision in January to list it with a realtor so that we could be on the MLS listing and get our house on the market to a larger audience. About 4 months into our 6 month contract we find out that the lady we were listed with wasn't on the MLS and neither was our house. Ryder was about to be born and our contract was almost up, so we just let it go and listed with someone else as soon as the contract was up.   

This brings us up to when I was on maternity leave. That is a maternity leave without pay. Twelve weeks without pay. Just because the pay stopped doesn't mean the bills did. It was tough saving up for this, but God provided.

Then the house was shown, a formal offer was made and we accepted with a few minor clarifications. We thought our prayers have been answered the way we wanted them to be! Then we find out that the buyers could not get financing.

The house has been shown a couple more times to no avail. And now it has been robbed by use of the very key that is supposed to help us sell the house.

This is hard for me to understand honestly. From a purely worldly view, I want to throw up my hands and scream at the universe asking why things can't just go right for us with this house?! Why is it that there has been a lot of interest, but no one can actually get financing?!? Why would someone rob us?!? It is an emotional roller coaster.

Then I remember that I have a savior that saved my SOUL from eternal damnation. If He has THAT covered, then I think He knows what He is doing with the sale of my home. If it was God's will for my house to be sold right now, it would be.

Period.

God has a reason for my house not being sold yet. I just don't know what that reason is. And I don't have to know. I just have to trust in the truth that God knows what He is doing and that according Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Emphasis mine.)

I mentioned my early twenties...let's just say that I didn't want to wait on God's time. I wanted to find someone and get married and have my family on MY time. This resulted in a string of bad relationships and ultimately in a bad marriage that ended in divorce.

When I finally gave up and decided it was in God's hands and not my own, God gave me Michael. You would think that THAT would teach me to trust God's timing.

And it has.

That lesson is just being tested again. I know that God is in control and that He has a plan for my life that is bigger than my own. Not only is it bigger, but it is better than anything I could ever dream up. So, even if it isn't patiently, I will wait. I will wait with the assurance that God knows what He is doing and what is best for me and my family. I will trust His timing and His love.

I'll leave you with this...I found this verse FOUR times in Psalms. I think it is worth memorizing and sharing...

Psalm 107:1 "Give thanks to the lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.

Psalm 118:1 "Give thanks to the lord, for he is good; his love endures forever."

Psalm 118:29 "Give thanks to the lord, for he is good; his love endures forever."

Psalm 136:1 "Give thanks to the lord, for he is good. His love endures forever."

I WILL give thanks to the lord, for He is good. And I know that His love endures forever.